Waiting

I'm currently with my 'man' 6hrs away from my babes who sit awaiting my ex also known as my legal husbands arrival. He's late and I'm unpreasent for my love ones caring for my children I can feel them getting anxious because he's 4 hrs late.
He has only seen the children 2 times in 5months and all they want for the holidays is to spend it with daddy their young but smart they want their Dad. Who promised them he would be there. The children I feel are being patient but the adults around them feel other wise. Even though I have only received one message from my family the energy I felt spoke valumes and has me on a roller coaster of emotions. Mainly disappointment for my children of both their absence parents. Guilt because I tried putting my feelings first. Anger because I'm the least selfish persons I know.