It was when I was going through puberty that I started to realize that I was attracted to guys. I tried to ignore that for the most part, my mom always letting me know how wrong she felt it was for people to be gay. And so I fought that side of me. I still found some girls attractive, and so I tried to focus on that growing up. I never talked about my huge crush on this big name actor; I never let anyone know how obsessed with this one boy band I was. I was constantly repressing myself, because I hated who that self was.