I wanted to be popular, wanted to fit in. I had friends but I knew that I would always be on the outside looking in if I didn't do something. I knew I was young and I knew I wasn't really ready but he wanted to be with me. I knew that if I had sex with him that it would make me popular, that he would like me and that would mean all his friends would like me. I lie there in the back seat of his car, waiting for it to be over, I was so scared and I knew it wasn't right and that I wasn't really ready. I thought of how cool it would be for everyone to like me and thought for that moment that this was the only way to get that popularity. He climbed on top of me as I nervously had my first time, right there in the back of his car.