Giving my son up

It was the most painful decision of my life. But I knew it was the best thing. I agreed to give my son up for adoption. But I didn't want to just give him up blindly. I remembered what happened to me in the foster home. I wanted to have a say in who got him. I was really adamant about it.

As a result, I was allowed to have an open adoption. I chose this wonderful couple who had wanted children for a very long time but weren't able to have them. They were stable financially, but not rich. They had a nice house with a special room for my baby. But more importantly, they loved and respected each other a whole lot.

So I signed the papers and handed my baby over to them. Although I had the right to some contact, I didn't want to do it. I thought a clean break would be easier on all of us.