Abusive Father

My throat burns. I wish the man would let go of me so that I could get some air. My chest burns, and I feel like I am going to fall asleep even with all the pain. Then he let go and laughed at me because my face was red, and I had tears running down my cheeks. Mom says my dad really loves me; he just has some problems with his anger. I just call him "the man" because deep down inside I wish he was not my father. I pretend he is not my father. Real fathers love their sons. He can't be my real father.